More and more I am amazed at how quickly time passes us by. I am even more amazed at how much things can change in a year, how much I have changed. The first half of last year was one of the worst of my life. My A.D.D. kicked into high gear, my back was doing worse than it had in a while, and all the struggles in school had left me feeling as if I had wasted the last couple years of my life. Last year was also a year of great loss: my sweet grandmother, Matt's wonderful mother(my aunt and second mom), and my faithful friend, Shadow.
The middle of my year was a mix. It was Marcy. She really forced me to take a good look at what I was working towards and to figure out if it was right or not. In many ways it tore me in two. In the end, thought, I had to trust in God to let her go so I could continue following the path He had placed me on. Though it was rough loosing her, I am glad that I felt the warmth of her light, even if for only a season. She taught my heart how to love again.
Oddly enough, the second half of '07 was one of the best five months of my life. I love Florida. I love the people God has placed in my life. They lift me up and encourage me constantly. I feel as if I am nearly complete. I see accomplishment where I thought would be failure. My health is returning to me. I feel more like myself, more balanced, and more in tuned with God's plan than I have felt in years.
As always, I thank God for all those people He has placed around me, old friends and new. If I have any new year resolutions, I think it would probably be to draw closer with friends and family and to try and live a less self-focused life. I guess we'll see how it goes.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Time, the past has come and gone
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Wow, Ted. That is a simply amazing reflective post (hmm...that last phrase really sounded like a crappy magic item). Great to hear things are looking up for you, and I'm glad you dig the great sunshine state as well. Blessings on everything.
If I had a "vial of less self-focused life," it would make things a little easier. lol
Hey, good post, God is always pushing us in the direction that He has planned, I read one of your other posts and was impressed, My name is David Ude I am studying to be a pastor in the small CLC (church of the lutheran confession) synod. I just thought i'd introduce myself and I am not really sure how this whole google program works so i didn't know how to contact you other than with commenting on a post. I just wanted to thank you for a good post I read from a while ago a good confession of Christ and I'm looking forward to possibly talking with you in the future.
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